little burned-outskis

so yeah, halfway through all this, which seems like a lot and at the same time seems like nothing at all. a month is nothing in the scope of life, but a lot has happened and i've learned a lot

it's funny though how much of my realizations while traveling don't have a whole heck of a lot to do with what i'm doing or seeing.

like this past weekend after the big midterm which i did alright on but could've done better on i guess, we went to Xi'an historical center of the Chinese world, and i actually liked it better than Beijing, it just had a comfier feel to it, no clue why

but it was rockin we rode bikes on an ancient wall around the city than wandered and shopped and ate at really cool places and saw a beautiful Chinese mosque and whatnot
PLUS we got to ride a sleeper train! big fan of em!!! not so much a fan of the fact that they can FLIPPING SMOKE ON TRAINS WITH NO WINDOWS OPEN
but overall a very fun experience

and otherwise i'm just kind of chilling, but i'm kind of resenting all the work we have to do because it restricts what we can do and see and that is ucky
i'm just such a learn by doing person that the sit and listen method isn't quite as effective or interesting for me, i mean i'm learning a whole heck of a lot of Chinese and i'm doing well i just want to be able to take advantages of beautiful nights like tonight to roam and be and find new cool places and things.

until i have more time i'm just getting by and doing as well as i can, i could stand a little study motivation though cause i'm getting to the burned-out point cause we just cover so much and now i kinda feel like i'm not soaking it in as well cause they throw SOO much at us... in short, wah wah wahhhh

in other news, i love the people i'm here with for many different reasons. but i find i care a lot about their reactions to me sometimes.
that is all.