Pre-China

Exactly one week before i leave, i have too much in my head to put it into anything coherent, which this is never likely to be.

i guess i'm comparing my thoughts now to what they were before i went to brasil, and they're vastly different.
i'm more scared now than i was because i know so less of what to expect;
i'm more excited because this is some place that i've always wanted to go to;
i'm just as excited that i'm going to be at a school with other chinese students, living the same way they do, with them; i know i'm going to get every thing from their prospective;
i'm scared out of my mind because i don't know anything about Chinese the language, i've tried to listen to it as much as i can, and i'm trying to use my book and cd's...but it's not the same, i need to learn by doing and being;
which is why i'm most excited because i know as hard as it's going to be, i'm going to get more out of this then i can possibly imagine